It is so easy to feel like you have failed. To feel depressed, and clueless to God’s plan for your life. To think “I’m being a good Christian. I pray and worship the Lord. I am thankful for what I have and where I’ve been. But God still won’t give me direction. I just feel lost and don’t know what I’m meant to do or where I’m meant to go! I tried to do one thing and it didn’t work out so I tried another and still I’m getting nowhere, and now I have more problems. I’m stuck in a mess and just confused and wish God would clue me in.”
Have you ever felt this way?
Abram probably felt this way too at some point. God sent him and his family on journey from Ur to Haran and into Egypt. Over 560 miles on foot with his family. (That’s like walking from NYC to Toronto, CA) But God did not point to a map and say to Abram “I need you to go here, here, and here, and I need you to do this so you will understand my power and the favor I have in you. And also,so you can understand the fullness of the blessing I will bestow on you when you are 100 years old.” But God did make him a promise to protect him and bless him for his obedience and faith. In Genesis 12:1-2 God calls out to Abram saying;
“Leave your country, your people and your father’s household and go to the land I will show you. I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you: I will make your name great and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you and whoever curses you I will curse; and all the people on earth will be blessed through you.”
Even with God speaking so clearly several times in the same manner as the verse above Abram still got stuck in a limited human mindset of what God had in store for him and just how God wanted him to get there. There are several times in Genesis where Abram fears what to do in his life, and tries to take matters into his own hands. He was confused about what God wanted him to do, and how he and his family would survive. Gen 12:10-20 is just the first of these examples. There was famine and Abram makes a decision based in his own fear that not only leads him into sin but puts his wife and the figurehead of a nation (Pharaoh) into sin as well. All because of misjudgment and fear.
However, God goes on to protect them from that sin and blesses them in spite of Abram’s misjudgment. Proving to Abram that God is in control and has a plan for him.
God has given us blessings and a promise too. Though Jesus Christ. The promise of salvation has been given to all who believe that Christ died to give us redemption from sin. Jesus has already completed that promise. So if God is willing to send his son to earth and die on our behalf don’t you think he is going to continue to look out for us, provide for us and love us? All it takes is having trust and faith in the face of what seems to be impossible and hopeless. Abram though he failed at times was faithful to God, and it wasn’t until the age of 100 that God gave him a son that he desired. It was all in God’s timeline. This is something that we all struggle with. We are limited in our understanding, and sometimes in our faith; but we can rest assured that so long as we seek out God’s glory no mater how trying the situation he will protect us and provide us with everything we need.